I didn’t even bother approving the comment. It’s my blog and I don’t have to. It was mean and I don’t feel like looking at that nastiness every time I log in. It did, however, say that God thinks I’m a whiny martyr and does not condone my behavior. He didn’t say God didn’t forgive me, but I’m thinking he implied it.

Listen. This whole thing is hard enough without comments popping up to rip me down just as I’m starting to climb out of the pit. But here’s something I do know. I know what God thinks about my behavior and about ME. David was a king. He not only had an affair but had the woman’s husband killed so he could have her as his wife. I’m pretty sure if we’re measuring sin here that his is worse than mine. Though I will tell you I don’t measure sin at all. Sin is sin is sin. God called David a man after his own heart. See, he doesn’t call perfect people. He calls flawed people. And this very flawed person has much to do and is taking a break from blogging for a while. I will leave you with the promise to return and this from Psalm 6:

1O LORD, do not rebuke me in your anger
or discipline me in your wrath.

2 Be merciful to me, LORD, for I am faint;
O LORD, heal me, for my bones are in agony.

3 My soul is in anguish.
How long, O LORD, how long?

4 Turn, O LORD, and deliver me;
save me because of your unfailing love.

5 No one remembers you when he is dead.
Who praises you from the grave [b] ?

6 I am worn out from groaning;
all night long I flood my bed with weeping
and drench my couch with tears.

7 My eyes grow weak with sorrow;
they fail because of all my foes.

8 Away from me, all you who do evil,
for the LORD has heard my weeping.

9 The LORD has heard my cry for mercy;
the LORD accepts my prayer.

10 All my enemies will be ashamed and dismayed;
they will turn back in sudden disgrace.

I don’t need to defend myself. I have the greatest defender ever. And He has plans for me that I am eager to discover once I am through the muck.

Here’s to ridding myself of the muck. Much love to those who follow and support me. I will be back.

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