Lately I think that’s what people see when they look at me. Vacant, empty eyes.
Sure, the motivation to drive off a cliff or into a telephone pole is gone, but so is everything else. My ability to feel anything to any extent beyond “that’s nice…” as well as my body’s ability to…well, be really, [...]

I feel very introspective today.
I’ve been standing at the stove stirring a pot for a while and listening to the 12 yr old on the phone asking her girlfriend what she should wear to school tomorrow. And I started thinking about how much I wish my hardest decision was what to wear to school tomorrow. [...]

We had it all figured out. He was prepared to give me my equity in the house and I was moving out in 4 days. We would sign some paperwork with the intention of filing for divorce in the near future. There were attorneys to be involved. It was for the best.
Except that it wasn’t.
Every [...]