When I was younger, I entered a contest. Every year. It was a country music singing contest. I entered for several years and always made the final round, only to take 2nd place and not move on to state competition. Two years ago at 35, I entered the competition for Nashville Star (American Idol but [...]
I suppose I should mention I quit drinking last week. I believe it was Thursday the 3rd. I know we’re supposed to keep track and say “dood I’m on like day whatever” for sobriety purposes, but I don’t feel like that. I just don’t drink right now. With my body, I probably shouldn’t. Not only [...]
As I lay on his chest, I can feel his breath rising and falling in rhythmic motion. His heart pounds heavily inside the cage of bones, now beginning to protrude no matter his position. I feel his chest muscles spasm involuntarily as his body fights off sleep, and I rest my hand on his as [...]
It’s 12:02 a.m. and he leaves today. My son. My only son. My firstborn child is now a Marine. Just typing that sentence sends me into tears.
I was 18 when I had him. 36 when he graduated from high school last year. I have watched him grow and learn and become his own version of [...]
Just a note to let you know I haven’t been checking this blog as often as I should. It’s still here, still going to stay up. But personal details and updates will no longer be posted here, but rather at the new location. If you’ve been following and would like the new address, please leave [...]
I have the new blog site. I have the design. Sort of. I mean, I have to figure some technical things out, but I’m quite happy with the design. I could launch it this week.
But….I’m frozen.
See, I’m stuck in the deciding of who will and won’t have access to the new blog. I [...]
I wandered through the bedroom aimlessly, looking at the stacks of papers, piles of clothing and the dust, all highlighted by the beams of sunlight peeking through the curtains. It’s times like this I feel the most helpless. Helpless, because it needs to be dealt with. Laundry needs to be done. Vacuuming. Washing of the [...]
I’m watching a show. We all know the name of it. It’s a contest to find the next big star in the music industry. The producers like to highlight specific contestants to draw more appeal for their plight and make us pick up the phone and vote for them later in the highly publicized singing [...]
…JERK. Big butt-headed-sonofahamster-too-big-to-spank-but-REALLY-needs-a-spanking JERK.
I don’t know what his problem is. Maybe being 18 is his problem. Moments like this I try really hard to remember what I was like at 18. Married. Pregnant with him. It could be worse, no? Still, as he sits behind me tap-tap-tapping away at his computer (because we told [...]
We posted this music last year, and actually, are having a ton of folks downloading it even though I haven’t mentioned in since last year. So, here are all the songs for easy access for your enjoyment. Please comment if you enjoyed them!
It’s The Most Wonderful Time of the Year
I Saw Mommy Kissing Santa [...]
